I don't feel safe here...
I must leave

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I lost the one I loved.
She disappeared with barely a goodbye.
I hope she's alright.

Why must life have been so difficult for her that she had to run away.
She said I was her Light.
I was her hope.

She was fragile.
It's not fair what happend to her.
She doesn't deserve it.

She believed that it was destiny for her and I to meet.
I learned a lot from her.
She learned a lot from me.

I'm hurting inside, seeing what the world has done to her.
I hate the world for being so selfish.
Give back my girl...

I got lost

Ok, I'm back on my feet.
Thanks Tony Robins.
Lately, I've been pretty defeated. Well, maybe thats not the right word. I know I was down for the count but I feel I jumped back onto my feet after popping in a very over due Motivational CD.

Next thing, reasses my goals. See what I need to achieve. I know I didn't reach my 6 month goal. In fact, just a bit shy of it. I know the set backs were no fault of my own, but I have to catch up once again.

Life is always try to slow you and even stop you...

Perfection and Happiness is a consistant practice. The practice of Fundamental skills is the mother of Success.

When all is lost.

When all is lost I found serenity in praying to God. What an awfully selfish thing I do! I rarely pray in time of peace.

I've some how lied to myself; in thinking that since the Lord gave me a brain, and that all that I have achieved and failed was by my hands. Maybe something I did in order to feel better about not praying as often as I should have.

I have given little credit, the are more things in the Lords control than in my hands. I tried to walk free and independent, telling myself that I was God. Inner peace has brought me arrogance. I should never abuse the privilege of inner peace again.

I haven't thought about my dad recently. In fact, I think I'm avoiding it. I feel rather ashamed, possibly I have not been "man" enough. Being a man means a lot to me. Being able to support myself in all areas of my life, and supporting a family as well.

Sorry Dad, I'll try harder.

When something bad is going to happen, something inside of me shakes. Perhaps my soul. Nothing is shaking, I'm not worried. I'm just frustrated. Thanks for everyone who has been concerned about me lately. I'll be fine.

When all seemed lost...I saw your face, optimism overcame me...